This is a post from one of my best friends Instagram accounts; @CarolynBrownNutrition - She wrote it while we were vacationing together ringing in 2017 in the snowy Sierras at Mammoth Mountain. I adore her, and think she is one of the kindest & most bravest souls I know, and I wanted to share it with you, because her angel network helped me in ways that I am not even able to yet put into words. Below is her direct post. - SWx
A few years ago (6 but who's counting), I woke up on New Year's Day with my first of many panic attacks. Anxiety wasn't new to me, but debilitating panic and physical pain were. A series of events left me wanting to quit grad school, leave NYC, and never see anyone I knew again.
Thankfully, my parents, siblings, a handful of incredible friends and my therapist swooped in. Yup I sat in my Dr's office at least 2 days a week for 5 years, many of them in tears. I also started going to weekly acupuncture, and eventually joined a yoga training.
I used to think of all of these people as saving my life, but now I can see how I saved my own life by unintentionally creating my 'angel network'. You need to have an angel network, too, and I'm happy to help you find yours.
Everyone has a chapter they don't read out loud, but it's important to give those dark moments, or years, as much -or more- credit for shaping us as the beautiful ones (2016 was pretty great). I am very much a 'yes' person, but it's ok to refine your friends, tell someone to stay the fuck away from you, and turn down a reaaaally great offer that just doesn't feel right.
May 2017 be a year of less filters, more real talk and vulnerability, and helping one another. No matter what you're going through, know that things will get better, and they may even make sense at some point. And there are so many wonderful people out there to help you heal. You are your best investment, I hope you make it a year to take excellent care of you (and of each other, too).
Love and happy new year.