We've all been affected by it at some stage; the version of 'normal' as presented by media, by magazines, by society. What you should look like, or aspire to look like. But where is the beauty in conforming? What of the beauty in the individual, and embracing your 'normal'? Lauren Smith opens up about the ongoing struggle in trying to change yourself to suit the mainstream, and how damaging it can be.
I am tired of being different.
I am so fucking tired of being different! I am a typical Aussie country girl but I have very dark hair, brown eyes and major curves. Compared to my friends who are essentially all blue-eyed and light-haired, skinny and petite. I am in my early thirties and I still can't seem to settle into myself and my body. I definitely don't hate the way I look but I find myself constantly comparing myself to others. I wish I could see what others see when they look at me. I am still trying to find acceptance for myself and I wish I could get there.
I want to tell people who feel different and who just can't seem to fit in that you are not alone and maybe one day we can all find self-acceptance and self-love.
I have tried to "fit in" many times over the years in various ways but it neither felt right or realistic for me or my lifestyle. It's been a learning curve, but now I try my hardest to stay true to myself and embrace who I am. But we all have weak moments of self doubt.
It's been a long journey but I'm slowly getting there and reshaping my idea of "normal".